Since it’s a brand new year, I wanted to share something I’ve been feeling lately. But if you bring this up in person, I will surely deny it.
At 11 pm on new years eve, I walked in half-asleep (I sleep early when I’m home…) to my mom’s church for the usual NYE service. She started going to this church after I left for Cal, so everything was foreign to me. Before I came to Berkeley, I didn’t have the greatest experience with churches (you can ask me more in person if you’d like, but this post isn’t about that so moving on!)… so I don’t really have a place I can call my home-church.
While we were reflecting on this past year, spending time in prayer, and listening to the sermon… I couldn’t help but check continuously to make sure 2012 hasn’t already come, since it seems most Korean services forget to count-down at the right time. As the minutes drew nearer to midnight, I looked around the small room, and felt a great sense of emptiness and loneliness. How awesome it would have been to welcome in the new year, in God’s presence, with my close brothers and sisters! God’s kingdom is very large and beautiful in its own way – but he is delighted when we share an intimate fellowship with Him and with one another. And on this very lonely New Years Eve, I missed you all so much. And thanked God for this often overlooked blessing of having people with whom we can delight in God’s presence in unity.
I cannot wait for this next semester to start… for us to praise God together, sit in church services together, study the same word together, and share life together.
If you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any fellowship with the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and purpose.
Stay healthy, rest lots, enjoy time with family and friends, and keep loving God!